Thursday, 12 June 2014

Me now

Ok so this is a perfect example of why I like to be in control when someone gets a camera out. I was on a night out with my besties and we met up with some girls that I don't know very well. Like always they were like "Pictures! Pictures!" And I couldn't exactly say no so I just went along with it and the next day there I am tagged in this photo. I was at work when I first saw it last week and it actually made me cry so much I had to go to the toilets so no one could see me. I just can't believe how fat my arms look in it. It was a brand new outift I bought that day to wear out and everyone said I looked so good in it but seeing this I was like a bloated whale. Now I don't know if those girls were just taking pics of me to take the piss :( 

Anyway, because of this photo and also little snide comments I've been getting at work, I've decided I want to change and lose weight for good. I CAN do it and I AM going to do it. It's all about feeling strong inside and motivating myself to change for the better, and only because I want to. 

So I'm not ashamed of my weight and I'm going to tell it how it is, like I always do. I hope you can do the same - it's so liberating to be honest! So here's how I measure up at the moment. Please feel free to tell me yours in the comment section :)

Weight: 152lb
Height: 5'5
Dress size: 16
Current BMI: 25.2

I know it might not seem a massive deal to most people, but to actually open up and be honest about how big I really am is such a release. I hope I inspired you to feel the same way.

Chloe x

Wednesday, 11 June 2014

Get to know me

Hi guys! 

My very first ever blog post :') 

I'm so excited to finally be part of the online blogging world. For the last few years I've been a fan of so many other people's blogs and I am a huge watcher of YouTube videos. My favourites are the SacconeJolys, Zoella, SprinkleofGlitter...Well now I want to be one of them ;)

Ok, so my name's Chloe, I'm 21 and from London. I'm such a happy, fun-loving girl but I also struggle with my weight which is not something I feel I can tell everyone. I've got two BFFs who go through the same thing and they understand but other than that I don't have many people I can open up to about it. 

I've had weight issues all my life so believe me I know how hard it is to constantly have to battle against keeping that number on the scales in check. Some days it's so hard I just want to give in and in the past I have taken anti-depressants where I have been so down about it. 

I've had the most down days ever, crying on my bed because of some nasty comment someone's left on my Facebook.

But deep down I know that you've got to be patient and take each day as it comes, and the more I do that the stronger I feel about keeping my weight under control. 

I know it sounds impossible but it's not! I've been down to a skinny size before so I know I can do it again even if it seems harder than ever. 

If you're going through the same thing, or even if you're not, I hope you'll come on this journey with me and we can encourgae each other and take inspiriration in sharing the good and bad times. 

Chloe x

PS. I hope that my selfie photos won't bother you - it's just that I like to feel in control when I need to take a pic ;)